Posts Tagged ‘Meditation’

What I need to remember

Wednesday, May 12th, 2010

You are not your roles.

I am not my roles.

I am not what I ‘do’.

I am not who I think I am.

I am not who I wish I was.

I am not the sum total of my deeds.

I am not the sum total of my mistakes.

I am not the net of my good minus my bad.

I am not a success. I am not a failure.

There is no label for me.

There is no combination or array of labels that will ever illustrate even a fraction of what I am.

Nothing in my life defines me.

Nothing in my life limits me.

There is nothing on earth with the capacity to behold me.

I may never truly understand what I am.

Shopping and zen

Monday, January 4th, 2010

For a long time I have said that our local shopping centre was built on a portal to hell. Nothing good ever happened there. It simply sucked the life, cheer, money and joy from you. It is a place I avoid as much as possible.

Despite my best intentions and planning, it was necessary to visit this dreaded place on christmas eve. Yes, we ventured out to the stores on Christmas Eve. Oh the Insanity! There was traffic on the roads, few parking spaces and people everywhere. I had a concise list to work through that meant I would be visiting around half a dozen stores.

People were throwing insults at each other, running trolleys into unsuspecting ankles, exchanging hollow Christmas wishes, cutting people off in the queues at the register and absent-mindedly blocking walkways. My partner was so grumpy (in response to the less than cheerful environment) I had resorted to calling him “Bah! Humbug!”, and he was answering to it.

The interesting thing, and the point of the post, is that I didn’t notice any of this. Well, I guess I noticed it because I can recall it, but it had no effect on me. No effect at all. I happily went about my business, gathering all the missing pieces for my Christmas Day celebrations without a thought or judgement about what was happening around me. I had no agenda or expectation, simply a task to complete.

The result -  I was home in an hour and a half from when I left my driveway. I was cheerful all morning. I got a parking straight away. Everybody was nice to me. The experience was possibly one of my most relaxed at the mall… ever!

I was in a zen like state! A walking meditation through the mall. Totally untouched by stress ad angst around me. Now if only I can live my whole life that way...