Tissue

Your fears are tissue paper thin. I have read it hundreds of times. Your fears are tissue paper thin. I tought I understood.

I was wrong.

I thought that I had faced my fears before. And to an extent I had. But I was still inclined to sit in my small risk-adverse box. So I was obviously afraid of something more.

Your fears are tissue paper thin. Yes! Your fears are, mostly, baseless. Yes! The courage it requires to stand in front of them, to simply inhabit their space, is immense.

I thought it would feel like bravery, to move past my fears. That it would take courage, will, inner fight.

I was wrong.

What it felt like was responsibility. What it felt like was defiance. What it felt like was coming home.

What I havent read in the books is that once you shred that tissue paper, everything changes. Everything.

Obstacles of the past now look like interesting challenges. Impossible looks like a 5 year plan. and playing small feels like I am cheating myself, and the world.

I feel softer, less stressed, less pressured, more gentle & more at home in my own skin. I have less to prove and more power to prove it with. Results are coming easily and I am less attached to how they look.

Your fears are tissue paper thin. Pushing through them changes you to your very soul.