On equanimity

What do you find attractive in a mate? What do you look for in a friend? What quality makes you feel most loved and secure?

Most of us don’t really know. Those of us that do have a ‘feeling’. We call that feeling Love. But we are wrong.

Love is important but as some of us know; Sometimes Love isn’t enough.

Love without loyalty won’t last. Love without faithfulness won’t make you feel secure. Love without strength isn’t powerful enough to let you relax.

Who wants to live the mantra ‘I know they love me but…’? Not me.

I need equanimity.

Flakey, shaky, flighty, moody, chameleon, temperamental, two-faced, inconsistent, indecisive, shifty, insincere, egotistical make me nervous, insecure, restless.

I crave equanimity.

All is well in my world when I know that the people around me love me enough to not be moved by my shit. That they will stand up to me in my own best interest. That they will walk through the valley of hell with me. They will love me even when they don’t like me. Then, I’m safe.

The love I receive is faithful, strong, staunch, sure, grounded & true. Or it simply isn’t enough. Fact.

This is the love I give to my son. I will be here, loving you, come hell or high water, forever. This equanimity holds his world together. I am no different.

Equanimity is the glue that holds my pieces together.