Margin for error
My son can be described as sweet, compassionate, excitable, intelligent, short, unreasonably strong for his size (just ask my Nanna), musical, extroverted, intuitive… and a million other words. But I will spare you the proud Mum ramblings.
The single word that possibly describes my baby best is ‘staunch’.
- Firm and steadfast; true. See Synonyms at faithful.
- Having a strong or substantial construction or constitution.
My baby has had a debilitating ear infection for a minimum of 3 months! He as had about 5 upper respiratory infections in that time and no less that 3 random (or so we thought) raging fevers. He has been sensitive and moody at times, but for the most part he has been his sweet, happy, energetic, caring self. One word. Staunch.
He has also been more cheeky. He stopped listening to my requests. So I got frustrated. I was consistent in my discipline with time outs and removing toys. I even yelled. I yelled more than I liked to yell. Yet I kept yelling because it was the only thing he would pay attention to. I now know that it was only my yelling that he was hearing.
I have been yelling at my sick baby. Few realisations make you feel quite as small as that. My baby has been in and out of the Doctors office feeling like hell, with a permanent sinus infection, partial deafness, infected ears, stuffy noses and sore throats for months. His Mum has been yelling at him the whole time and still he doesn’t complain. Staunch.
He can communicate, yet he couldn’t tell us what was wrong. The Doctor has looked in his ears a million times and never seen the minute difference in the ear drum. I have researched for hours and hours and we all missed it.
Sometimes the margin of error is tiny and yet it’s implications are huge.
PS I called this post Margin of error because I already have a post called Epic Mum Fail. And I am trying to see the lesson in this as opposed to just heating myself black and blue.
