Internal chaos & things I wish I had known
If only I had known…
- when I was an embarrassed teenager that I would look back on my line dancing days with a smile and wish I remembered how to dance ‘God bless Texas’.
- when I was a young[er] radical that my like would appear oh-so-conservative a decade later.
- that shaving was such a pain in the ass. I probably wouldn’t have started shaving my legs so young.
- when my baby was tiny how fast he would grow. I might have taken more photos or documented the first 2 years a little better.
- when I began working full-time how little I really needed to live on. I almost weep when I think of the designer clothes I bought and wore once.
- that I would never use my high school photography, biology or chemistry knowledge again.
- that preaching, raising my voice or standing on my soap-box wouldn’t actually make any difference at all. It would have more for a less abrasive youth.
- that breathing was the only thing required to push through most fears.
- sometimes integrity means saying nothing. And sometimes compassion is ruthless.
- that a tidy desk is the sign of a tidy mind and that that just isn’t my style. ‘One must have chaos within oneself, to give birth to a dancing star.’ – Nietzsche
What do you wish you had known earlier?
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I wish I had known that it was okay to just be me sooner.
I hear you Kelly. Now I just wish I knew the secret to diplomatically handling extended family that aren’t as enthusiastic about embracing ‘me’. Cheers for stopping by xxx